My mind has been running a marathon the last few days and it has left me physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted. I have been struggling, not with my decision to leave, but for Joshua. I just pray for him every single day. I want to make sure he knows how much I love him. I want him to know that in every decision I make, he is always at the front of my mind. I want to give him the best life that I possibly can and want him to grow up in a home that is happy and filled with love. I know that God is strong and he works miracles everyday. God has already given me such peace about our situation. Joshua has been adjusting beautifully. I know that in my heart, I have made the best choice for Joshua's future and mine, I have to remember to cling to God's unconditional love, just give it all to Him and in that find my rest.
Megan, thanks for including me in your site here. You are a wonderful mother. Try to remember that you are a wonderful whole human being as well. One of the greatest gifts I gave my children (according to them) was that I was always an interesting person in my own right. Jayson's friends sat down with me a few years ago and told me that they had sort of categorized the parents, and I was the "one that would take them anywhere." He made all his best friends at the age of 3-4, and we parents still see each other and e-mail pictures. It's a journey.
ReplyDeleteI hope you are doing well and keeping your head up. I know what a wonderful person you are and what an incredible woman you are. Just know that you are in my prayers and if you need to talk or anything just give me a shout!
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